Yesterday my friend and I were having a discussion about a guy at my church. The young man previously had a crush on my friend. I told her she should date him, he seems like a good guy. My friend agreed that he was a good man, however he wasn’t her type. She stated he came from a good family, and he was a sweet person. His sister whom my friend had a good relationship with said to my friend one day in regards to her brother after he did an extremely thoughtful thing “I can’t believe he is still single.”
My friend mentioned to me the conversation she had with the guy’s sister, stating she too doesn’t know why he is single. I replied “I think God has someone special just for him, and when the time is right they will be connected. God isn’t going to let a good man of God like that go to waste.” Deep down in my spirit, I really felt what I was saying about this brother was true.
The next day I started to replay the events of that conversation in my head. Those thoughts came to me after I had an extremely rough day at work. I had been hit with a scary situation and literally prayed my way out. I knew that it was only God’s grace and mercy that brought me through. I started to thank God for moving in my life. I started to think about my faith and how these were all examples that prayer was real. I was thanking God for moving when I needed Him, when all of a sudden a thought came to my mind “He moves in every area except sending you a husband as you desire.” My heart said “trust God in that area too.”
All of a sudden the conversation I had with my friend the day before resurfaced in my mind. Why is it that I thought God was holding out on this man’s behalf because he was a good man of God, but I could never have those same feelings for myself? Why is it that I thought God was holding out for this brother as a blessing, yet in my life He just laid dormant on my behalf when it comes to love? Why is it that I see this situation as “lack of” instead of seeing it as “provision”?
God was speaking to my heart. What I considered to be Him “holding out” was really to benefit me. I am His precious daughter and He wants more for me than I could ever want t for myself. I am a good woman of God, His baby, and a true servant who deeply loves Him. This isn’t an act for me as it is for many people. God knows my heart, and He knows my ministry. He can’t just pair me off with just anyone. He is saving me for His best fit.
I think the real question is how to do I view myself? Do I see myself the way God see’s me? If I did, why couldn’t I understand what He was doing in my life by saving me for that special guy? Why couldn’t I trust that the problem wasn’t necessarily me, but instead a blessing God has for me? God blesses us to be a blessing to others. God gave me the vision a few years ago that my husband and I would serve Him together in ministry, helping people and we would be a powerful duo together. We would make moves together in His name. So why am I trippin’ that my husband isn’t here?
The problem with many of us is that we expect God’s vision to manifest into reality as soon as He gives us that vision, and when it doesn’t happen right away, we lose faith. We question if God was really speaking to us. The Word of God says in Habakkuk 2:2-3 “The LORD answered me, “Then the Lord replied: “Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.”
God is an amazing God and He can do extraordinary things in our lives. This message wasn’t just for people who desire to be married someday, this is a word that is for anyone who is looking for God to do some extraordinary things in their lives. I used the story of being connected mate because that is a situation I can relate to. I was really tested today to bring forth this testimony so God wants someone to hear this message. God is going to move mountains and do the unthinkable in someone’s life. So be encouraged saints. It will come to pass!
-Kimberly L. Watts